I Don't Want to Set the World on Fire

Happy one year anniversary..

it may not look much to the outsider, but its have tremendous effect in my life.

I can't believe it been one year.

I wonder what should I do to celebrate this special occasion?

P/S : I could stop, but the real question is should I stop?

you are my sunshine

Its funny that you met me at the strangest time of my life.

I never thought that it could be like this.

I don't know what the future holds.

But I really hope that you will be there.

I just wish that you would stop making assumption that you are bothering me..

And no, I'm not tired..and please stop saying that you will no longer bother me..

P/S : you may not realize this, but I'm breaking so many rules for you..

killing me softly

The hardest part of saying goodbye is having to do it again every single day.

There are a lot of girls in front of my eyes, but there only one that matter.

All these emotion make me want to do something stupid. Right now I'm thinking about dying my hair.

I need to move on, badly. But how could I help if the heart still pining for the past.

I remember there was a time she ask me, "how many girl do I say goodnight to everyday?" Told her I didn't count. It true that I didn't count because there only 1 girl that I say goodnight to.

p/s: I been going out with 6 different girls for past month. Every time I close eyes, I can only see you and start imagining what it like to be with you.

Heartache by the number

If you really want me in your life, you would not told me 2 month later.
If you really want me, you would told me on January.
If you really want me, you would not told me after you engaged to someone else.

It clearly that you made your decision.
It is really heartache for me, but at least now I can move on..(hopefully)

Yes I got heartache by the number, a love that I can't win but the day that I stop counting its the day my world would end.


P/S : If by chance you didn't get marry this year end. I will take that as sign from God that you are belong to me.

Woke Up This Morning

throughout this few months had made me realize one thing.
it is very difficult to be a teacher.

and I'm not a teacher.
I like the idea of teaching someone something.
but to do it as your career throughout the years. Now that a real challenge.

now I have new found respect to teacher around the world.
hence, I would like to propose a toast to teachers around the world.
without you, I would be end-up dead or some dirtbag doing something stupid.

p/s : I would like to take this moment to say thank to Mr Lee Yong Guo (sorry if I pronounce your name wrong) for teaching me math and become a huge contributor to my future. Seriously, before this I don't even believe in myself, you made me who I am today. It true what Pooh say (yes, Winnie the Pooh) , sometimes the little thing will take up the biggest place in your heart. And it true what they say "those who can do, those who can't teach"

Can you hear the trumpet whispering?

I wish life is easy, but its not.

The important lesson I learned for today, sometimes you need to take down your pride and start again from bottom.

What done is done, now let focus on brighter future. We can't control the past, but we can control the future. The best way to predict the future is to create them.

This remind me of Prison Break series(on Session 3 if I'm not mistaken). When they being throw into Panama Prison. There are 2 people with 2 different approach, first is the warden (forgot his name, bellick maybe). The warden try to act tough and like he running the show, but instead get his ass kick and mugged. Left unconscious almost naked in the middle of field. Long story short, he having difficulty for his life for next few week.

On the other hand, there T-Beg, veteran inmate, didn't show his fang when start get in the prison. We all know his story during the first prison. But in Panama, he don't let that bother him, it is almost like he a new inmate. He start all nice and charming to the big boss in Panama. Oh, how he act and pretend. If only I remember this earlier. Starting from bottom, slowly moving up the ladder.

Maybe that my mistake, I'm expecting some kind of authority because of my history. I should be more wiser, my history and background don't determine how people should act toward me. I should use my history and background as my stepping stone. As lesson learnt so that I make better decision.

It ok, it alright. I learned my mistake. Let today be a lesson that I will never forget. Remember to be humble and helpful to other people. Just do to other what you expect other do to you.

The future road will be dark and full of terror. But we will walk slowly as success is beyond that.

P/S : Let try our best not to kiss ass. let our work speak for our self.