Starry mood

There is a girl who I felt in love at first sight.

There is a lot of other things that I forget, but I still remember when I saw her

She sitting there, smiled at me, you get the picture.

We are in this on and off relationship..

in very odd relationship.

we both love each other, but at different times, at different places.

it seems like destiny is playing a cruel joke with us.

I don't mind how the destiny had changed you. 

I just wish that you can see past my flaw.

but I'm sorry that I'm not the man who you thought I am.

That man is exist, but he will be fake like plastic. (And I hate that man)

I'm trying to be honest with you. Can you see I'm taking a huge gamble here.

Don't you know that I'll move the mountain if you want to baby.

You have no idea what I'm willing to do for you.

If you could say that you belong to me and ease my mind.

Imagine how the world could be, so very fine.

But let be real here,

I can see the signs but I choose to ignore it

My head keep telling me there's no way this will work

but my heart still want to try for one last time.

I don't want to spend the rest of my life wandering

if I'm not completely screw up my chance

I know that this is not gonna work.

So instead of losing you and burn the bridge.

I choose to salvage what remain here.

If God want us to be together, we will be together.

In the meantime, let have the last supper and let get this over with.

What is the hardest thing to do?

It is to say goodbye to someone you care.

It is to say goodbye to someone you love.

It very hard to say goodbye, but I have to do this.

You are the one that got away.. again.

The one that steal my heart away.. again.

So long and goodbye.. again.

Let hope our path never cross again.

To the girl that taken up so much place in my heart but doesn't know it.

I just hope that one day, you will wake up and realize what you have done

you have miss one hella guy.

Too bad that our egos and prides have cause us this relationship.

P/S : I wish I didn't call her on my first year back to peninsular (when I call her that time, I totally forgot who she was on that period). Or maybe if she didn't pick up the phone. Then I won't need to face this drama. (And now she is the heartache that keep lingering)

New chapter

It been a while since I post anything in this blog.

In case you are wandering, I'm not dead nor I'm in jail or something. It just that I've been busy, very busy, very very busy (doing nothing..hohoho).

Moving forward, you will see lot of posts from me (hopefully). This time it will be something that on my mind, or something on my heart. Maybe some advice, maybe some rant or maybe something inspirational for you. (Who know what the future will be). 

What I'm trying to say is that, this time, there will be no more some copy paste thingy from some website. All will be written from me. (there might be some quote here and there) The main target for these new post is only one. These posts is for you my love.                                          ..................(yeah right)

These post is for my future self. So that I will know what kind of person I am before. It take less than a second for someone to change, so before I change, I will like to mark the existence of my current self where my future self can see it. But if you want to read, read on my dear. 

I believe I'm old and mature enough to have my own idea and opinion. Think of it as warming up and practice before taken up my Master. That right boys and girls, I'm planning to take Master.


p/s : let see how many post will it take until I'm tired of writing these blog entry.

Gamer advantage

Taken from http://slowrobot.com/

Amazing Infographics about Fitness

Taken from http://www.goodnet.org/articles/610

Never quit

Taken from http://slowrobot.com/p/24/

Billy Collins - Forgetfulness

The name of the author is the first to go
followed obediently by the title,
the plot,
the heartbreaking conclusion,
the entire novel which suddenly becomes one you have never read,
never even heard of,
it is as if, one by one,
the memories you used to harbor decided to retire
to the southern hemisphere of the brain,
to a little fishing village where there are no phones.

Long ago you kissed the names of the nine Muses goodbye
and you watched the quadratic equation pack its bag,
and even now as you memorize the order of the planets,
something else is slipping away,
a state flower perhaps,
the address of an uncle,
the capital of Paraguay.

Whatever it is you are struggling to remember,
it is not poised on the tip of your tongue,
not even lurking in some obscure corner of your spleen.

It has floated away down a dark mythological river
whose name begins with an L as far as you can recall,
well on your own way to oblivion
where you will join those who have even forgotten how to swim
and how to ride a bicycle.

No wonder you rise in the middle of the night
to look up the date of a famous battle in a book on war.
No wonder the moon in the window
seems to have drifted out of a love poem that you used to know by heart.